I'm 27 years old today and I survived a war with rockets being shot from fighter jets, heavy explosions every night, and seeing buildings collapse and crumble right in-front of my face. I do not wish this experience to anyone I know/don't know but it does change your perspective on life
This isn't a political blog post thus if you want to know how this happened, read about it through this wikipedia page and take everything you read online by a grain of salt if you wished to dive well into the rabbit hole (you have been warned)
I am fortunate to be working at a company that did manage to relocate me temporarily to Istanbul-Turkey and managed everything needed till things settle down in Beirut when things escalated on October 2024. It is a privilege and a luxury that not everyone gets to get and I am forever grateful for it that merely writing about it is not sufficient
Surviving a war does change your viewpoints about life, it makes you appreciate things you wouldn't expect and make you see how fortunate you are even if you don't have everything at the moment. I never knew how fortunate I am in my position with all the current things that I have right now yet being over fixating on the missing parts of the glass than the filled part the past couple of years, all I cared about is filling those missing parts yet never got to enjoy the filled parts
It was a decent year, wouldn't say that it was the greatest but managed to do things that I am proud of like doing 3 major AWS events in 3 different countries (AWS Summit UAE in Dubai, AWS Community Day UAE remotely in Istanbul, and AWS Community Day Lebanon in Beirut) plus I would say that I did good progress at work and managed to live on my own for a span of two months where I got to learn how to cook, clean, and take responsibility on a different level
I took a break from everything around and trying to get back to things next year, there are lots of things that I am processing to this day that requires time to handle on a personal level. We expect a-lot of things to happen in this world yet unfortunately not everything ends up in the way we would have expected which I am trying to adjust to that viewpoint, there is nothing wrong with believing in something to happen in a favorable way yet we might not have the visibility on everything in life to know why it won't happen or if it did happen that it won't stay long enough yet we thank God on all conditions we go through and accept what we get to have in this world
But starting from today that I am going to take life in a different way, I got to see things in its true form and changing lots of things around. Living on your own makes you see the world and its people in its absolute true format, I am restructuring my idea around "friendship" all together and what it means since I might be holding a wrong definition for it and I think people are mistaking my kindness for niceness but never less you can't change people's perspective on things hence let it be plus I will be changing my perspective on other people whom I may have misjudged all this time to realize later on that they weren't whom I thought they were (and vise versa on the opposite)
The only thing that does matter is the path that I am currently on and the things that move me closer towards the life that I always wanted to have thus starting this upcoming year in a new venture that I will be carrying with me for the next upcoming years. I have taken that decision a long time ago yet but I have postponed it for long, now it makes more and more sense to do it since all the cards stack towards my own favor when it comes to doing it
Until then, I won't be blogging and talking much than doing what needs to be done. I have a path to undergo with and I can't dwell anymore on what happened in the past